breaking point
i’m giving some major life updates tonight because i feel like going on a tangent. my dad went to the hospital 2 or 3 times recently and we got more bad news our weenie pup got IVDD (half paralyzed) stress is high and i’m fighting to not drift into psychosis again it’s just so easy to slip. if i ease up and stop fighting to keep my mind steady for one second i’ll start going into a daze and suddenly nothing feels real and my sanity begin to morph and disintegrate. sometimes this happens between the time from when i get tired to when i fall asleep, in my dreams, when im under the influence, and when im cracking under high stress and tension. it’s all apart of my schizophrenia- well my specific variation of it. there’s so much to worry about and so much to despair over. how do we keep our hope intact when everything around me goes to hell? is it me? am i plaguing them by being around? surprisingly? i don’t want to relapse. it was so life changing getting sober and after being around my p...
